BEST NEWS EVER!!!

FIRST OF ALL: SLAYER FLUFFIN' ROOOOCKEDDDD!!! \m/
SECOND OF ALL:

during their last song jacob turned to me and asked me to be his girlfriend! he gave me his checkered sweatband
he told me he was nervous to talk to me because i reminded him of an evil dark princess XD

so true, little does he know i am!!

i wrote a poem about it:

the halls
an familiar and unsettling void
one anchor holds me down
keeps me from drifting away
you

my dark evil king
your piercing green eyes
with your stone cold stare

i never thought you knew i was there
but now my wings have been fixed
and i can fly
in the darkness

you & i


hope you guys like it!
also i am still too young to work at hot topic but i got an interview at the funeral home in my town
it was good and i start this week which means there will probably be a lot less posting from me :(

don't worry, i'll be back when everything in my life goes wrong again...


blood & kisses
geraldine

gerard way is a sell out!!! vlog

hey guys, i think this is a really important vlog of mine to watch. don't support my chem anymore!!! you'll see why once you click the vlog...
also exciting news towards the end. also, there is a surprise towards the middle...you'll see...just watch! *___*

p.s i know i suck at imovie, ill get better though!


ughhh i told you i suck at it! here is the 2nd part that wouldn't go with the first (all of it is important so i suggest you real or burn in hell! oh no wait...i mean live peacefully and BORINGLY in heaven)

vlogging with moonbeam and alice

here are a TON of vids me, alice and moonbeam made the other night when they slept over
we had really great discussions on politics, religion, the governement, posers and life in general...so you should check it out. we are really 2 crazy sometimes...o_O

i wonder why people havent sent us away to the crazy house yet? XD


Introductions of my new friends:


stepmoms suck! (also whats with babies having phones?? serious pet peeve!)
also my vidz got fucked up because i dont understand imovie, they repeat a little bit but there is new stuff so keep watching


we are pyros ^_- (hehe)


moonbeam has the best boots, check out some of our clothing...


here we discuss abercrombie (preps...ew!) and religion:


hope you guys enjoyed. let me know what you think in the comments section...
or not

new vlogs coming soon...

but in the meantime here is a cover of "smells like teen spirit" by NIRVANA (one of my fave bands) by kids that DONT go to my school (obviously, if they did, my school would be cool...but it's not).

pix from the last few days

(me goofing around on my new mac, black of course...)

this would be convent cunt, for all you posers out there that pretend to know what being myspace famous is like...

me with a poster of my GOD!!! OZZY!!! \m/
(also note: just discovered the sepia tone, really like its antique look)

moonbeam and alice came over the other night, we practiced wiccan rituals and watched edward scissor hands

surprisingly, i have friends
they are probably cooler than yours (yours probably listen to avril lavinge and wear aeropostel x_x;;)

wow!

wow!! so one good thing in my otherwise miserable excuse for a life happened to me the other day. jacob asked me to go to a concert with him...

at first i played up the "i dont care" thing but deep down inside, i for once, felt alive ^_^

we go on our date tomorrow, should be interesting. i'll keep you guys updated.

this boy is beautiful

convent cunt

made a new friend on the internet today, her name is convent cunt. we're planning to meet.

cried

I've cried my last tear, theres no more to cry, i'm immune to the hurt. i wont show it, i wont show it for you to see, even though it hurts a lot, you will not see. i will not care, you'll give up and go away. i still wont be myself until that day where something so good its unimaginable, you've made me cry my last tear, the last salty drop, dripping down my red face, i've cried my last tear i cant let any more out.

1st vlog

ughh i hate the way my voice sounds x_x

more writing

i wrote "i miss you" a thousand times and sent it out to sea in the clearest bottle i could find, hoping someone or something would find it and the message would somehow reach you. i don't think you realize how much time i spend thinking about the way a cigarette lays in between your lips, and how you would smirk and your eyes would scrunch up just a little and even just that could make my heart jump and beat with enough force to break through my ribs. you knew how to treat me, how to make me feel beautiful, and when you kissed my cheek the world froze, and i lept and skipped and all those other things people do when they've been touched by someone they love. i took those moments for granted and i feel like my timid tendencies got in the way of something that could've been as beautiful as the place we were standing when you grabbed my hand and smirked at the mountains and the sky.

even though it's been almost a year, i'm still a little sad.

I think sometimes I think too highly of myself and let myself down a lot because of this.
I don't know. I don't feel so good anymore. Not lately.

A day is just another day, work is just work, etc.
Nothing has any significance tied to it anymore.

updates on my "so-called life"

the boy i love has a name
jacob

we talked
sort of.

...he asked me if i knew when our next geometry test was. i told him it was on thursday.
he grunted and walked away, blasting what i think was from autumn to ashes on his mp3 player

how can i make him realize that we are meant to be?

amy lee is my idol

so beautiful

haiku

i've been writing a lot of poetry recently...

fragile wrists, i slit
blood, color of a rose, f a i n t
i fall to the ground

some pictures of myself

really liked the black and white effect on my computer
fits my mood well

currently listening: "girl's not grey" - A.F.I

i think i am in love
today

...i was walking down the hall, skipping lunch as i usually do
when i saw the most pretty boy in the world walk by

he was wearing a Marilyn Manson shirt and baggy black jeans with a silver chain.
he had a mohawk and was wearing as much eye liner as me

we locked eyes

i am in love
how do i get him to love me back when no one ever does?

-geraldine

p.s
actually need advice so please comment....

Nobody likes me, everybody hates me,
Think I'll go eat worms.
Big fat juicy ones, Eensie weensy squeensy ones,
See how they wiggle and squirm.

Chomp off their heads and squeeze out the juice
And throw their tails away
Nobody knows how I survive
On worms three times a day.

the sun is out, i hide behind my curtains

i hate the sun. it burns my skin, it hurts. the pain reminds me that i am alive.
i just sat in my room all day blasting my Slipknot CD. rocked out \m/
i did some drawings that i will post on my deviant art account later...they are not that great but whatever.

don't want to go to school tomorrow. that place is a hell hole! all the girls are concerned with how they look all the time and all they wear are uggs and hollister...yuuuuckkk...

meep meep! ^_^

i have a geometry test tomorrow that i haven't studied for...oh well.
think i might dye my hair green? or just a strip in the front o_O

until we meet again, i'm signing off. going to sleep...dreaming about bert bert mccracken
no boy will ever measure up to his greatness, i luff him
not that i'd ever get to be with a guy like him

-
geraldine